I’ve been thinking about why I started to blog & the path I took to get here. My Aunt just passed on, and she was a mentor to me with my singing. “Sing to Express, not to Impress”, she would tell me. And I do come from my heart in most of what I do. I am being more aware of the times when I am not, and am correcting those as I catch them. I can feel her encouraging me to be more clear, more heartfelt, and more true to my path in life.
There is a power in speaking your truth, or singing it, writing it, drawing it~~~ being it. Sometimes things happen when we go through life that shut us down. I encourage you to find those blocks, and loosen them. Clear the pathway for expressing yourself.
My story goes like this: I was one of 4 children, very close in age. I was the only girl, and the oldest and I would run or skip around the house singing. My younger brothers did not appreciate my voice and would set up a big fuss about me singing. So, mom would hush me. It is easier to hush one happy singing little girl than to hush 3 crabby little boys. The message I told myself was that I didn’t have a good voice, and no one would like to hear me sing! So I got quiet, whispered a lot, or talked so quietly I was asked to repeat myself many times. I also had many rounds of laryngitis and nasty coughs.
Fast forward to my Aunt (yes, the one I mentioned above) & Uncle’s 50th wedding anniversary party. They had a young girl there singing a Karen Carpenter song “Why do Birds Suddenly Appear” She was maybe 13, and had the sweetest, most angelic sound to her. Most of the folks in the room had tears in their eyes, except for Mom. She turned to me and asked why everyone was crying, and I said it was because this young girl’s voice was so lovely. She replied “you sounded just like that when you were little” You could have blown me over~~~after all these years, I realized I’d had a mistaken belief about my voice!
When I got home, I signed up for voice lessons, and a womens choir, and I have never stopped singing since! It’s been 13 years, and I am about to launch a website that blends energy healing and music together, and will eventually have more of my voice and songs available.
So, whatever your story, whatever may have happened in the past to make you stop expressing, I encourage you to start again. There is a fire, a passion, in me now that was suppressed, along with my voice. I am certain that Mom didn’t mean to hush me in such a big way, she was only looking for peace in the household that day!